We go to a restraunt, I’m hungry and you order for Me,
my friends think its sweet, that you would care enough to remember what I like, to order for Me
We go to a party, it’s late, you say you can drop me home Safely
You say its night I shouldn’t have been out this late anyway
Now I think you’re sweet, maybe
We walk through a mall and you keep your hand on my shoulder, just to make sure that everyone knows you are with Me
The hand is heavy
We sit with some friends and talk, but now you’re stopping me from saying what I want
You’re talking for Me
I am angry, you decide I need a hug,
You decide for Me
We go to see a movie, you say that serious art type is not for me
We are at home, you say you don’t like my skirts anymore, the way I talk, I walk
bruises your ego
I am angry
I shout
You decide I need to be punished
You decide for ME
You raise your voice, your hand comes along
Up in the air mid way ready to STRIKE ME
I stop your hand
I realise
It wasn’t you, It was me
Letting you decide what I want to eat, letting you disrespect, disregard what is precious to me, ME
You say you were trying to help,
just trying to make sure that I am okay
and I realise that I never told you that
MAYBE
I never needed you to fix me, polish me or save ME
I did that part years ago
I forgot to say in words
that I wasn’t asking for help
that I was asking for love, friendship companionship
I forgot, but now I am telling you
I don’t need you to fix Me
and from there we can go
to fix things if you want to,
Fix something Soo Much
Fix yourself, your misogynistic, orthodox, set in its way mind
Fix your attitude, the attitude that makes you want to shout, hurl, throw and hurt
when you can be just kind
Or understanding maybe,
enough to get it straight that I don’t need rescuing, I have rescued me.
I don’t need you to come gliding on a horse through the fire
to make you understand that maybe,
I am not looking for you, maybe I am not looking at all, maybe this dress that I wear, that brings your little world to tears MAYBE it’s for me.
To feel pretty and sure and enough for me
So MAYBE
You would get this someday, I am no damsel in distress, no girl that you can “SAVE”
I am me
and I am strong enough to fight for what is right
For ME
I don’t need you or your help
to prove that I am pretty or nice or brave or sexy
or strong or just too far gone
’cause I have Me,
and I am enough for Me.
I AM ENOUGH